It's all still up in the air, where I'm going to be tomorrow or the next day. All I'm sure of is that my heart is tired of crying and never being felt.

But I feel like I owe a million people apologies today and forever. Unfortunately I scared a large quantity of persons by my last entry. So, I'm sorry for scaring people, for not promptly returning phone calls or even answering them. But no one can know about this fighting inside me, the battle between bad and worse. I'm cursing myself until I fall down, but that fall will be my last. I won't wake, I won't move, I won't be.