i'm tired. does anyone else agree? it's gotten to the point where everything i do, whether i enjoy it or not, seems like a chore. even sitting around at my house doing nothing seems like a chore, because i know there's something else that i should actually be doing. i'm not happy, i'm not unhappy, i'm just here, and i guess it wouldn't bother me two cents if i could feel again instead of being this unemotional machine.

but i'm not looking for attachment.

where the hell do i go with this? none of it makes much sense, and i'm sure no one understands it, not even myself. being productive will make me feel better today.