I am bait in the water. I'm here, just waiting for something to happen. I leave in less than a week for AZ, which I'm hoping will clean my head of some of thie negativity I have. I'll skate with Henk later today, and I will be beautiful.

It was December when Pat first told me that I was beautiful. I cried, but not to him. It was unbelievable to hear it from him. He's incredible. I miss him too.