Pat...I miss you. I miss our talks that are always lost in time. I miss staring contests, I miss the silence.

I dread going back to school right now, but I have to. I don't like dealing with the 'have to(s)' anymore. I just want to deal with the 'maybe laters'. I'm bored with things. I wish simplicity.







I have a Shit List today. Grrrrrr...

Today's Shit List
1. Happy: She's digging holes to China again.
2. The weather: Will it ever get decent here?
3. Sleep: I never get enough of it, so I'm boycotting it now.
4. You: You are on my Shit List
5. Money: I hate it because it governs life.

There is one good thing about today so far. Emily and I finally figured that we were going to go to IA next weekend. I need time away from here. Well, two good things. I'm going to get Thai food right now.

6:53 P.M.
I'm coming down with a cold, for the ten millionth time this year. I bought zinc pills once when I was sick. And you know what's fucked up about that? My dad took them away from me and threw them in the garbage because he thought I was going to overdose on them. Right, Dad. O.D. on zinc supplements. OK.

I just decided that I wanted to be a hippotamus a few minutes ago. They're massive! And they have huge mouths with huge teeth. Fishes pick things from between their toes...they can spend large amounts of time under water. Damn, hippos have it well.

Oh yeah, and about the same time that my father took away the zinc pills, he also took away my calcium supplements because he thought I would try overdosing on those too.

The frickin Discovery Channel makes me think: why is it ok for men and women to run around with their genitalia showing but it isn't ok anywhere else? Hmm, expose indigenous cultures so that some stupid person can laugh at them because they're naked...while some other sicko flogs the dolphin to it. But pornography...gawd forbid that some woman/man shows themself through something purely sexual...I don't know where I'm going with this...Maybe I'll delete it later.