my past is catching up to me, but it's a good past. it's the boys i've been without for so long and the girls that i never see anymore because they live far away. it's nice to have a complete feeling at the start of winter, even if the snow and cold splintering air gives me chills that last forever down my spine. it's nice to know that there are things to keep me warm, and plenty of things that i need to take care of. busy is now the cool thing for me.

i drank coffee again tonight. i don't know when to stop. at this rate, i'm never going to sleep before my american history clas at 8. that's okay, i can study, right?