I wish this sinking feeling would stop. I'm tired, I'm losing patience with myself, as well as others. Everyone's been so sad/hard on themselves lately. I am definitely included in the above.

My body is burning now, like a thousand fires set in my heart. I miss John (seems like I haven't put that URL in here in ages). It's been nearly a month since he left. I've heard from him via phone and received two letters. But it's hard as all hell to not speak to him. Sometimes I don't know how much longer I can hold on...