it gets hard to keep trying sometimes, when all you do is fail in their eyes. but i'll keep trying, because i know eventually, it'll make me feel better. besides, i think i'll have fun defying their beliefs of me. jb deals with me very well. i *heart* him for putting up with my difficulty/bitchiness.

my face is tear stained and tired, so i suppose now would be a good time to start the work i've put off for two hours now. giving up and giving in...