1. at one point tonight, i said, "fuck valentines day."
2. i take it back, even though we both cried.
3. it was the saddest/best valentines day i've ever had.
4. i/we got to do the things we wanted (backrubs and television, snuggles and hugs, holding hands while sleeping next to each other).
5. he wrote me a song.
6. and he sang it for me.
7. and it made me smile a lot, and it made me happy for the rest of the night.
8. i want him back for the rest of the night.
9. but no, i had to come home at 4:15am to finish a paper that's due tomorrow.
10. i'm listening to creepy music from american beauty and on page 4/4.
11. hopefully this won't last much longer, as i plan to go to sleep sometime before it starts to get light outside.
12. goodnight.