i wish the panic attacks would stop. i wish i had someone to leave the house with right now. i wish i wasn't too ashamed to wake up my sleeping husband to leave the house with me right now. i wish someone would take me for a late night drive. i wish i wish i wish. i wish it would get warmer and stay warmer outside. i wish time would stop going by so fast so i didn't have to be afraid. i wish i didn't feel too old to blog. i wish it was okay to have feelings, even if they are crazy. i wish i wasn't still awake, but in fact sleeping like husband and puppy are. i wish i was warm, and i wish my toe didn't hurt.